A few years ago, I experienced a very bad divorce. In that divorce, my ex wife initiated parental alienation. I have a young teenage daughter now, who hates me, and is very angry with me, due to lies told to her about me by her mother and others.

My daughter does not wish to contact me in any way. Yet I still hand write my daughter once a week, and mail these letters to her to my ex in law's house, since I have no idea where my own daughter lives now. In these letters to her, I never mention her mother, and always write her with words that express love and softness, as well as innocence.

In time, my daughter will discover the truth about me, and what happened to our family. Meanwhile, I have to deal with the pain of being without my daughter.

To deal with the pain I continue to experience, I write my daughter. This helps greatly with this devastating intrinsic pain I have, due to the absence of my daughter in my life. Here is my latest letter to my daughter Hayley:

Hi Hayley,

Hope all is well with you.

Not much is new with me. I finally got a job with American Greetings. I got this job lead on a website at a place called Dryhootch. We take apart and install greeting card displays in stores. It is hard work, but I enjoy what I do, and I work with nice people. The people I work with are all older then me. So i'm the one doing all of the heavy lifting and everything. We also travel to different places all the time, and I really enjoy these trips.

My girlfriend Carol got me a really nice phone recently. Not that you would ever call me, but the phone number is: 262-748-0302. It also has internet and all, this phone I now have.

When I'm not working, I'm usually helping out people where I now live. Most are older then me, and most have various health issues. So I'm happy to help them out in a lot of different ways. Sometimes, just talking with these guys helps them out a lot, I feel.

If I'm not doing that, I'm usually on the computer where I live. Carol and I chat on facebook and gmail all the time. And I'm always reading news and all, on the computer. Also, I find out wherre my essays are being published. One day, what I've written will become an actual book. But I have to write some more before that happens. Also, I listen to something interesting on youtube, while I'm on the computers where I live now.

Aside from my many friends where I live now, I also see Carol about once a week or so. She will come here, and we usually go to the dryhootch coffee house, which is really comfortable. When I have money, I usually take Carol out to lunch.

And sometimes, I go over to Carol's house. She lives with her mom, who is a very nice lady. I love talking with Carol's mom. And I'm very glad I moved up here in Wisconsin earlier this year, so I could continue to care for Carol the best I can. I feel I'm doing a great job so far, taking care of Carol. And I know she is mending me in a lot of different ways, since I needed to be repaired in a bad way, I feel. But I'm still thankfully quite alive, and I'm happy about that.

Anyway, that is all that is new with me. Of course, I'd love to hear from you in some way. You are in my thoughts often, and I continue to love and miss you very, very much,

Dad